After 2 days of struggle, I was finally able to go back to my true consciousness. When certain karmas are about to come into play, or if one does something that is not appropriate, the first thing that happens is the consciousness gets clouded and one is no longer able to go that deep. Yes, the light maybe there, the sounds maybe there but the true turning over, the true layer of being within just cant happen.
That is why Gurudev said, “Antaskarana Man ek pana dagho nathi chalto” Meaning not even one blemish is permitted in the Antaskarana.
Swami Vivekananda said that we are like the fishermen who love their fish smell. What is the fish smell? Our consciousness is so used to depending on thoughts, emotions, the concept of body, that if we ever get out of it, the consciousness gets uncomfortable and longs for those things again! Truth of the matter is when one is established in he the true consciousness, it has no need of any of those things – thoughts, emotions, body etc. When one stays in ones true consciousness for longer and longer durations, we slowly develop a new of seeing things, communicating, understanding etc. The consciousness does things intuitively. All of those things and all the while remaining in calmness or in bliss or in joy.
The scriptures in Yoga have repeatedly said that the Yogi should remain in isolation, not talk much if he truly wants to make progress. Why is that? I now realize the reason. With every interaction – either verbal or by thinking of someone or by communicating with letters or on the internet, the Yogi, gets in touch with all the emotional, thoughts and karmic garbage of the other person. If he is not able to filter and prevent them, he or she will accumulate the garbage of the other person. This is not a fancy of my mind. I never believed in it. However, now lately, I am able to feel and occasionally see these things. Seeing them gives me more control and the ability to prevent the accumulation of the garbage.
Where do these things accumulate ? They accumulate in the subtle aura, the sukshma world that is right next to this gross physical world. There are many other higher worlds, but this sukshma world or in the words of Sri Aurobindo, the subtle physical is where these things are stored. It is the meeting place of the gross world, sukshma worlds, the subconscient worlds and the dream worlds ! What a chaotic market place. This is the world where the more advanced disciple is able to keep aloof and see it – like a drop of water on a lotus. Here one can see the future of something about to happen in the immediate future, here one can have some control over the karmas and make some changes in it for others, and here one is able to transfer karmas from one person to the other.
I can state these things but it is worthless since it is meant to be experienced and slowly gain mastery over it.
A while ago, I was trying to move ahead but one of the Rudras at the Anahata chakra stopped me and said no. He will not let me proceed. You have karmas to pay. I tried to explain this to Hasmukhkaka. I said one of the worst things that happens as a consequence of karmas is one cannot unfold ones shakti completely and it prevents our spiritual progress! However, I was going to help and expound on it, but he immediately said, he has to go. I have seen this many times! Anytime I am established within, I have tremendous power and the ability to help others in their spiritual progress but for whatever reason, instead of having silence and humility their emotions and ego gets excited and they see me as being egotistic or get unhappy with me or suddenly have the urge to hang up and go! How wonderful is the machinery God has created that unless one is truly ready, the other person cannot even be helped!
Who am I to help? No one! The true consciousness, which is I, when seated there can help with a mere thought or will!
Bhavin