It has nothing to do with Buddhism or yoga.
Buddhism and yoga talk about mindlessness – a state where the mind is no longer active.
Mindfulness is a way of increasing mind activity in a specific direction. Generally it focuses on the body.
I prefer less focus on body. Mindfulness – Anyone can do that ! It will not give you God or love for god or reality of consciousness.
Stop reading blogs – meditate the right way ! Find a guru who can deliver you.
Even with a perfect guru – 99% of the disciples will not be able to hold on to the guru. Why? The disciples ego, past karma, and lack of surrender.
There are other reason from the guru side why a disciple cannot hold on to the guru. This is not for discussion in public. However, it is the greatness of the guru !
Millions will follow a fake guru. Hardly one will follow a great one !
Bhavin