We are incapable of seeing the flaws in our personality
The word personality comes from the Latin word persona which means mask ( Sri Aurobindo)
We all have a personality ( a mask ) The way we behave with friends, spouse, family, front of officials, grocery store is all different.
Some place we have anger, anguish and we display it and other places we show ourself to be wonderful and say God bless.
Eventually, we learn as we grow more stable in meditation that our personality and behavior really was terrible.
ONE OF THE EARLIEST SIGNS OF PROGRESS IS TO REALIZE THAT WE HAVE A MILLION PERSONALITY FLAWS. IT IS TO THE POINT THAT YOU FEEL ASHAMED OF YOURSELF. AT THAT POINT YOU REALIZE EVERYTHING THAT WE SAY OR TALK CAME FROM EGO AND DESIRE
The goal of meditation is to slowly change it to love! Love and caring for others to make progress
And that is the beginning of meditation
Bhavin