It is very important to have patience while “repenting”. Hurting yourself or begging forgiveness is not repenting.
To do those things is an act of transgressions- since you were made in the image of God
Some of the key elements in repenting include
Patience
Never to repeat the error again
Follow the guidance of a true Guru
Love for God
There are a few other elements in it but I must refer the reader to Gita, books by Yogananda, Yukteshwar and a wise Guru who can interpret the Bible
In Matthew there is a quote – And if your right hand causes you to stumble, cut it off and throw it away. It is better for you to lose one part of your body than for your whole body to go into hell.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE do not take the literal meaning. Instead ask a Guru what it means
Bhavin