So there are many many millions of fools who believe they have read the upanishad Gita veda and know that they are shiv or atman or infinite consciousness
Why are they fools – they have no experience. What should the experience be like? How do I know I reached there?

Here is the description above. Now you can freely blame yourself for all that went wrong in your life and the moment you realize your the architect of your misery your anger diminishes
But you can never reach there without a Guru. Smaller levels yes. But not the highest