The evil mind

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People have the habit of dealing lightly with thoughts that come. And the atmosphere is full of thoughts of all kinds which do not in fact belong to anybody in particular, which move perpetually from one person to another, very freely, much too freely, because there are very few people who can keep their thoughts under control.

When you take up the Buddhist discipline to learn how to control your thoughts, you make very interesting discoveries. You try to observe your thoughts. Instead of letting them pass freely, sometimes even letting them enter your head and establish themselves in a quite inopportune way, you look at them, observe them and you realise with stupefaction that in the space of a few seconds there passes through the head a series of absolutely improbable thoughts that are altogether harmful.

You believe you are so good, so kind, so well disposed and always full of good feelings. You wish no harm to anybody, you wish only good—all that you tell yourself complacently. But if you look at yourself sincerely as you are thinking, you notice that you have in your head a collection of thoughts which are sometimes frightful and of which you were not at all aware.

For example, your reactions when something has not pleased you: how eager you are to send your friends, relatives, acquaintances, everyone, to the devil! How you wish them all kinds of unpleasant things, without even being aware of it! And how you say, “Ah, that will teach him to be like that!” And when you criticise, you say, “He must be made aware of his faults.” And when someone has not acted according to your ideas, you say, “He will be punished for it!” and so on.

You do not know it because you do not look at yourself in the act of thinking. Sometimes you know it, when it becomes a little too strong. But when the thing simply passes through, you hardly notice it—it comes, it enters, it leaves. Then you find out that if you truly want to be pure and wholly on the side of the Truth, then that requires a vigilance, a sincerity, a self-observation, a self-control which are not common. You begin to realise that it is difficult to be truly sincere.

You flatter yourself that you have nothing but good feelings and good intentions and that whatever you do, you do for the sake of what is good—yes, so long as you are conscious and have control, but the moment you are not very attentive, all kinds of things happen within you of which you are not at all conscious and which are not very pretty.

If you want to clean your house thoroughly, you must be vigilant for a long time, for a very long time and especially not believe that you have reached the goal, like that, at one stroke, because one day you happened to decide that you would be on the right side. That is of course a very essential and important point, but it must be followed by a good many other days when you have to keep a strict guard on yourself so as not to belie your resolution.

The Mother, Questions and Answers 1929 – 1931, CWM volume 3, pages 230-232.

Now this is from Mother – Aurobindo

The Buddhist way of controlling thoughts is rather a painful way. Why? There is no awakening of shakti. With awakening of Shakti, there is something positive which you can hold on to and give up all the negativity of the world and your own thoughts. It is a powerful way – awakening of Shakti that washes away all impurities like a massive flood sweeping away the dirt in a house at one stroke. Moreover it is permanent for subsequent lives also

It is true that our mind has many impurities. We just don’t know it. That’s why people when they start on the path think they can get done in a few months or years. But once you have truly started – you are shocked. Disgusted. Ashamed and then you feel this is a never ending, impossible journey and that samadhi is pure fiction.

Truth is – none of the so called Guru in this world those who are in public limelight have even started on a single chakra. Forget samadhi. Now I could be wrong and quite ignorant and I confess my limitations. However those who have taken the first step , generally don’t talk in public. They are happy to find one or two worthy disciple. You might ask me about Yogananda and Vivekananda but they had a mission. It was more so to increase awareness of Yoga. They may have had a few disciples on the way. Their mission was forced upon them by their Guru.

You know from previous blogs that I am more like Akho. Very negative about Gurus in general

A true Guru is very rare

Anyway this mind is your enemy. Constantly pulling you down and away from God. Divine consciousness. Cleanse it. Make it your friend. Don’t be negative about the future. Know that God has created the universe and us. How can he not take care of us. It is our impurity of mind, erroneous way of thinking that immediately blocks us from receiving God and his blessings. Be confident. Hold on to God. Your Guru. They are always there , ever so willing to help us. But a negative mind thinks – but what if they don’t? What if they don’t because of my karma ? That is a negative mind. An impure mind. A positive mind thinks, i will give up my ego. I will give up my hatred. I will give up my anguish. God has created me. My problem are part of his creation. He will do it. I will not question him

That’s it. Your problems are gone !

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