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THROUGH THE EYES OF LOVE- Part I

Before I went to India, I meditated, did Yoga and became a vegetarian. I had a lot invested in being a “spiritual” person. When I got to Maharajji, however all of these things that I’d been doing to “help myself” began to fall away naturally. That’s how it was being with him. In the intensity of the love, everything that was in the way- even so called spiritual practices, especially if done with heavy feeling of I’m doing this because it’s good for me- would simply fall away. That feeling was a wall that separated me from the sweet, powerful intimacy of his love. I couldn’t stand anything to be in between him and me. Especially me.

Burning with longing fire,
wanting to sleep with my head on your doorsill,
my living is composed only of this trying
to be in your presence

  • Rumi

The feeling that I had while sitting with Maharajji was indescribable. I was gazing at all of the beauty in the world. Can you imagine all of the beauty in the world condensed and shining brilliantly in one person? When we fall in love with someone, that’s what we are seeing: all of love in our own being is projected onto the screen of the loved one. Maharajji merged with infinite love so when his other devotees and I looked at him, we were looking directly into the light coming from the projector, rather than what was being shown on the screen. Then there was the feeling of being at home, so totally at home. My heart was at ease with itself. I was right where I wanted to be. Incredible!

Maharajji showed me over and over that he knew exactly what I was going through and that he was right there with me all the time. He knew everything about me. He knew what I’d done in the morning, from what I ate for breakfast to what I was feeling when I walked across the bridge to the temple. He knew about my life before I even met him. He showed me in so many ways that he had always been with me and was with me every moment.

He was always running from us or sending us away. Maharajji used to say, “My mantra is ‘Jao’ (This is the Hindi term for “Go away”) We asked him why he sent us away and he replied, ” Attachment grows both ways”. One of Lord Krishna’s names is Mohan, which means, “He who causes the whole world to become attached to him”. Maharajji drew us in and allowed us to become attached to him. He knew how much we could withstand before getting unbalanced and “losing it”. Then he would send us away or run away like Krishna did, and like the Gopis of Vrindavan ( the town on the plains where Krishna spent his boyhood), we had be left desolate and longing for him. It was his way of purifying our hearts through the fire of love.
To be continued…………

Excerpts from “CHANTS OF A LIFETIME SEARCHING FOR A HEART OF GOLD” Chapter ” THROUGH THE EYES OF LOVE” written by Shri Krishna Das.

Jai Babaji ki

So this is where Krishna Das made a huge error

When Maharaj says “Jao” which means go it was a simple test of love. He failed. The feeling and right response is – Maharaj please take me within because that is the only place for me to go. Not this world. This world I find very unpalatable

Maharaj was testing the disciple, when he said Go. Where does the disciple want to go

Rumi said

Burning with longing fire,
wanting to sleep with my head on your doorsill,
my living is composed only of this trying
to be in your presence

  • Rumi
    The door sill is a secret passage – where if you pass it – the concept of life changes. All that you think is living becomes a dream. And true consciousness emerges

Few know of it

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