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An elusive endpoint

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EVERYONE will go through life with some things simply unfulfilled. It will be quite a long list. The unfulfilled list is the cause of the next birth. Simple.

Yogananda gave an example like this. I dont have the exact example. Lets say you have a life with a good spouse, decent home, some financial stability, but you only wish your children were better and less disruptive. You also wish that people would understand you better. So, in the next birth you get people who understand you better, a wonderful spouse, but this time good makes you struggle for every penny. Then in the next life, you say, no God, make it perfect. So God gives you a good spouse, good money, decent home, people understand you better, but this time he take away your health.

And now you become smart. You say, God give me money, good spouse, good health, people understand you, good finances, but now you have a very short life

The life we have is a complex play of many different aspects. Mostly it is determined by our Karma and part are shaped by our desires. Everything, we want will be fulfilled but not when we want it or how we want it. The wait will be painful. We will get angry and frustrated. Get bitter.

And by the time we get it, we have lost interest. But since we wanted it immensely, we will get it. Thus everyone goes from life to life, with a long list of unfulfilled wishes. This will continue.

So what does a smart person do? He or she gets angry at onself and the mind. They will wake up and say, I am not going to chase the wishes of the mind. It will only bring me pain. If there is any enemy I have, it is my own mind. I will no longer be friends with my enemy, my mind. Soon enough, you will realize the futility of chasing the world. It was designed to give pain to an unruly mind. Thats why if there is any Satan, it is your mind filled with desires. Knowing this choose wisely

Now there is a dry period in our pursuit of life. We try not to give into the pursuit of life desires. We try to meditate. We have a true Guru. But yet the immense joy. of meditation, remains a spark rather than a blazing fire. This is the dry part. All, I can say is one has to go through this. If you want to eat Uttapam, you have to make the effort of fermenting the batter and then wait. There is no other choice. Eventually you get to eat the uttapam. Then you will say the wait was worth it. This is the phase where you really need an advanced Yogi. Their support is a must. Without it, many a people have given up the path. Thats why in Gita it is said, of all those who try only a few make it

I know this is one of the more boring, blogs, but it is true. We are like a leaf, split away from the tree, blown by the winds of desire, hither and tither, unable to fall back to the feet of the tree where we fell from. Eventually the wind slows, the leaf falls to the feet of the tree. The ego dissolves, the leaf looses its form and gets assimilated again into the full tree!

Top 10 lines that helped me

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Now everything in the scriptures are helpful and important

However there are some statements that helped me immensely. Here they are – but not in any specific order

  • The experience that you gain from even a few seconds of super consciousness is enough to help you for long lasting changes. I found this very helpful. Gurudev stayed in that state for months and years. Without food. Impossible for me or anyone unless he permits So for me knowing this gave me peace! This is from Devatma Shakti Param Pujya Vishnutirthji Maharaj
  • Happiness comes carrying a crown of pain. This is from Vivekananda. This helped me not to crave things in this world. Knowing pain is to follow. Even if the mind seeks things I am very cautious
  • Ramkrishna said Keep going deeper. He gives the example of a woodcutter. He was cutting small shrubs and earning a living. He was quite happy. Then a Guru said, why don’t you go a little further. He initially said he was quite satisfied. But then one day he said let me try going in further. And lo and behold he saw a huge Forrest. He made a lot. Was happy. But then he suddenly remembered what the Guru said and went further. Lo and behold there was a silver mine. Wow he said this is the best. Kept mining. Then he remembered what the Guru said and kept going further ! There was a gold mine. This continued – diamond etc This going deeper is in reference to meditation. Keep going in deeper and deeper. It is an incredible journey. Whatever you think is high , there is something much higher.
  • Difference between Nigrah And Sanyam – નિગ્રહ સંયમ. When you deny the pleasure you are doing nigrah. That is ineffective. It does not get rid of the desire. But merely suppresses it. Someday it will spring back into motion violently. In Sanyam – we focus on getting rid of the desire for the pleasure. Let’s say you love Pizza. You decide you won’t eat it. That is suppression. Sanyam is the way to go. You tell yourself I want you get rid of the desire for pizza. You have to be very astute, observant and catch on to the desire itself. You tell shakti please help me get rid of the desire itself! This may sound easy but it Is not! Suddenly you are saying and asking, God I never want money, fame, prestige, respect, lovely food etc. Suddenly the soul is bewildered. Oh what happen to me when this happens. Will this life be worth living. There is nothing for me. But remember getting of the desire does not take away the food or prestige or money away from you any more than wanting money doe’s not bring you money either! This is the true significance of Arjun Vishad yoga in Gita first chapter. Krishna if I kill my desire and attachment, will this life be worth it! I would rather beg than kill these desires!!! This difference between nigrah and sanyam was from Aurobindo Integral yoga
  • Another must read is yogananda God talks with Arjuna first chapter
  • In life difficulties, the divine romance by Yogananda
  • A very detailed description of turya avastha in the avastha described in the private old book ( as per Gurudev)
  • Private things Gurudev told me. This will only help me
  • Jyoti mudra as described by Yogananda in chapter 6 of God talks with Arjuna
  • Maha yoga Vidyan describing 4 levels of progress
  • The first chapter of holy science, describing Agyan and how it becomes ego , Sattva and mind

Hurdles in Yoga

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Even when you have a Guru, after a while your progress will stop. The soul is unable to carry the burden. It gets broken down. Looses faith. This is to be expected on the journey. Maya and Karma collectively will deter the progress till the breaking point is reached. However, this is not because of Yoga but it is because of our own karma and many aspects of our Ego that has to be broken. Every soul has to go through this. This will happen even if you dont follow Yoga. The advantage of Yoga are as follows

  1. Shortens journey
  2. Shortens burden of karma 80-90%
  3. You Guru will pick up your Karma and get rid of unseen problems even before they arise.
  4. The path itself will become a delightful journey.
  5. There will be increasing evidence of a world that you cannot see. D
  6. Daily, your faith will continue to increase.

So having said this, what are the hurdles that halt the progress

  1. Practicing it daily. This is a must. Rain or Shine. No matter what the work load is, you must do it. I remember I would sit for 2 hours daily even during internship when I often worked 36 hours without sleep, working. You must show you mean business to Shakti and your Guru.
  2. No effort is wasted. Lahiri Mahasaya was meditating as a child in the sands near the river. Babaji was aware, silently waited till the time was ripe. And then awakened him. Pursue this boldly, even if you dont have an iota of experience
  3. To elaborate on these points

a. Your mind will make excuses. You will believe them. Excuses like – the miracle was coincidence. It Is not for me. I don’t believe in Yoga anymore. What if my Guru is not real. This path is too far fetched.

b. What if I am caught in a cult? I want more proof. But God Is not you court jester dancing to your demands.

C. I don’t have any experience. The path may be true, but I Am not worthy.

D. I read all these wonderful things that are described. None of it happens to me. This path is wrong.

  1. There are common emotional conflicts a disciple will face. Don’t cave into them. This is why many of Gurudev disciples wavered from the path. Gurudev wanted Faith first then gave higher proof.
  2. Similarly Faith in Neem Karoli Baba, Shirdi Baba , will waver. This happens because the mind has the constant habit of demanding More and more. It is never satisfied. The goal is to want less.
  3. It is to keep this up, you need a very advanced disciple to support you, carry you over these negative thoughts
  4. I will not be here in physical form for ever. But Good willing I will try to guide only those who are very sincere Half hearted attempts May not grab my attention
  5. The experiences are often but understood.
  6. So called dreams are not understood
  7. You will need to ask an advanced disciple or Guru
  8. There are 5 phases of awakening, shanti atita , shanti, vidya, pratistha and nivritti
  9. Each phase takes about 5-10 years
  10. Progress is carried over in next birth
  11. The progress made has to be reclaimed in next birth – it happens at right time

Once again my blog is rather incomplete. I get tired of using words or typing or talking.